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Bathroom Revelations

Here I am sitting in the bathroom (the ONLY quiet room in the ENTIRE house). I have my Bible, scrap paper, and pen and here I sit and scribble down my thoughts…

I have just been praying and waiting on the Lord. I want wisdom… I need wisdom!

These past few days have made me so incredibly grateful that the God who created the Heavens and Earth cares about even the smallest detail of my life. I have NEVER felt so blessed… and I have had much to be thankful for. I feel like God is taking me to depths that I assumed I had reached but I was so wrong. I am in awe of His grace upon our lives… Thank you sweet Jesus!

There is this house… I want this house. And although I have been so completely open handed with it, my heart still says I want it. I know it would literally be a miracle to see this happen. I don’t have nearly enough money for a down payment and we’d have to see our monthly support go up by another $2000/month…. Impossible to some, but not to my God. So I have trusted Him for it. I believe he spoke to me/us about it. I have pushed for it. I have shared with people, I have asked people to help, I have been doing my best to do my part in this miracle… but was I wrong?

My heart has been to be nothing but open, transparent and humble with you all and here I share again.

I seriously ask the question, “Have I been wrong?” I ask the Lord for wisdom… I’ve never been so desperate and felt so close to God at the same time (He is extraordinary!). And my biggest fear is that I’m misinterpreting what He is saying to me. So now we are here… now… in the bathroom asking for wisdom.

With Bible in hand, I asked the Lord to give me understanding. And I “happen to” flip over to Proverbs 24. These verses stood out to me instantly like turning on the light in a darkening room. I could read it! I understood it!

…(vs 3-4) By wisdom a house is built, and through understanding it is established; through knowledge its rooms are filled with rare and beautiful treasures…
…(vs 5-6) A wise man has great power, and a man of knowledge increases strength; for waging war you need guidance, and for victory many advisors….

…(vs 10) If you falter in times of trouble, how small is your strength!...

…(vs 13-14) Eat honey, my son, for it is good; honey from the comb is sweet to your taste. Know also that wisdom is sweet to your soul; if you find it, there is a future and a hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off…

…(vs16) For though a righteous man falls seven times, he rises again, but the wicked are brought down by calamity.

When praying about the house, God spoke to us that what He wants from us right now is for us to be close with him. He wants intimacy. He wants us to press into Him. And we have… we have not done anything but try and get our hearts right before Him on everything, House or no house. We just laid it down and God has caused us to just become so united, transparent, God-fearing, humble, and completely in love with Him. We have recognized his Grace and have felt so thankful for it. I have LOVED and PAINFULLY journeyed through every moment.

We had placed a time limit on making a definite decision on the house. The house is still not up for auction yet and now it’s the deadline on whether we’ll be continuing to go after it or not. So I sit here and pray. I look back at all the verses God gave us and the communication we’ve sent out, I look at other people’s responses and review the counsel given to us, as I/we pray and seek God…. the over riding thing I see is Him working in us. Nothing really about a house, but our hearts. He wants “OUR HOUSE” to be in order!

It’s seriously like the light bulb has been switched on. He’s giving us wisdom. I can now see past the house and into the miracle He really wants to do… Restoring our family! He wants to make us whole and make us one. He wants all of us to be in line with his heart and dreams no matter how, big or little we are off track and I can’t believe how far off I was. I wanted that house… I STILL want that house, but I don’t nearly care for it as much as having a complete, whole, Jesus filled family. I mean, He is the LIVING GOD and He actually cares about having the best Haythorpe Family He could have!

At this point we will NOT be going for the house. We have felt God has used this house as a catalyst to deal within the depths of our hearts and we have not let the opportunity slip through our fingers. We have been knocking on all possible doors for us to buy this house but it has not unfolded the way it needs in order for these heart changes to happen. However, we have embraced ALL lessons the Lord has taught us through this. That's all we really can do to make this experience worthwhile. We now know that our main focus is not how we can get a house to live in but how do we build a foundation for our household that will last far longer than any building would…

“Thank you God that you continue to work regularly and you desire to have our whole hearts. Thank you for your wisdom. Thank you for your strength. Thank you for the foundations you are building in our house and that you are helping us to get it in order. Thank you that you are giving us the tools to wage war against the enemy. Thank you that in the last seven months of this house dilemma and although its knocked us back a few times, you continue to raise us up time and time again! Your sweetness fills my soul and brings us hope for a future! THANK YOU LORD!!! We are so grateful!!!”

Looking back at the verses the Lord gave us previously… and all apply to aligning Our House with Him and His promises to build it up! Joshua 1:9… Be strong and Courageous Psalm 46:9-11… Be still and know that I am God Psalm 37:1-6… Delight yourself in the Lord, Commit your way to the Lord
Isaiah 42:16… I will lead you, I will not forsake you
Philippians 2:1-30… be humble and know His sovereignty
James 1… consider your trials a joy and don’t only listen to the word, do what it says
Isaiah 41:14-16… I will help you and make you a weapon.
Ezra 6:7-10… Do not interfere with the work on this temple of God. Whatever is needed will be taken care of.
Romans 4:20-25… God will credit us righteousness for our faith
Genesis 22… walk in faith and fear of the Lord
Isaiah 32:17-18…. Be righteous.
Philippians 4:9… God will meet all our needs
Psalm 25:14-15… The LORD confides in those who fear him
Philippians 2:4-5… you should look not only to your own interest.
Philippians 4:10-14… Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am
Matthew 20… check your attitude
Isaiah 55:9… His thoughts are higher than our thoughts and His ways higher than our ways
2 Chronicles 7:14… humble yourself and I will heal your land.

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