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The Reality of Moving Mountains


As you know, this blog is about our ever growing faith and journey to see it grow. I don’t often like writing when I’m
in a place of breaking.... you know, that place we call “breaking point”? The point JUST before you actually see some kind of breakthrough. In this place, you know there is an end at sight, but you can’t quite see the it. All you see is the mountain your climbing and it easily looks like it just got taller by another 100ft only three seconds ago!

Humility is definitely not my strong suit. And thats where my breaking point usually leads to. Anyone else know the feeling??

When I do write, life tends to be a bit more clear.  I don’t like being too emotional, over spiritual or too controlling. I aim for stability, just a nice steady line that I like to look at and say, “Good. Looks like all is in order”...  however, with my current circumstances the steady line I'd like to be looking at looks more like a portion of the rocky mountains than anything else!

Instead of being silent in this time (which I probably would normally do)... I felt I should search my heart, throw off any pride and write to you how I/we have been and what I've been going through.

Recently, days have been getting tough. We catch glimmers of hope, expectancy and excitement for this new season but it doesn't take away the fact that it isn't easy living day to day in the unknown. Let me clarify... We are, for sure, holding on to the hope and expectancy. I don't think we'd still be on this journey if we didn't have a bit of faith, but it has increasingly been harder as days roll by.
“You unbelieving and perverse generation,” Jesus replied, “how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy here to me.” Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of the boy, and he was healed at that moment.
Then the disciples came to Jesus in private and asked, “Why couldn’t we drive it out?”
 He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
I read this today... Yup. This portion of scripture is so confronting in my current level of faith. I definitely cannot pride myself on my “growing” faith today because currently, I confess, it is probably nowhere near the size of a mustard seed.  I have faith... but it seems at a bit distance, and hard for me to grab on to at the moment.

In ministry, we identify that our lack of faith stems from 3 major things... FEAR, DOUBT, and UNBELIEF. One of those, if not all, strangle my flickers of faith on regular basis.  I do not think I am BOUND by these but they are ever reoccurring, rearing their ugly heads, in my faith walk.

My latest battle is in us moving (forget moving mountains!) sometimes it seems bigger to see our family move into a permanent place! It is as huge as a mountain! But today I read this scripture...

Maybe I just needed a kick in the pants or maybe I needed a reality check BUT of the entire Bible (all 1,000+ pages), I get about 100 words that feel like all are intentionally directed to me!

BAM! UNBELIEF SMASHING ME IN THE FACE!!

I choose to not walk in unbelief, I confess it to my Father who is always there for me. I turn from it daily (and sometimes momentary). That is why I’m writing this today. Not to complain, but to show that this is REAL LIFE, with REAL FEELINGS and REAL SPIRITUAL WARFARE. I struggle with these things constantly, like anyone else, but I need to make a choice to walk in the opposite spirit than the one that is trying to oppress me. I want to encourage you to do the same.

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—

where does my help come from?
 My help comes from the Lord,

 the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip—

he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel

will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you—

the Lord is your shade at your right hand;

the sun will not harm you by day,

nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm —

he will watch over your life;

the Lord will watch over your coming and going

both now and forevermore.
Psalm 121

Circumstances are often out of our control... they are definitely beyond me! I feel lost a lot of the time. Its still hard EVERY DAY. But I know that I can look back and see where God has spoken. That I can hold onto those bits and let them encourage me to keep my eyes off the mountain(s)... because mountains can move! And HE is the one that moves them.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

Let this writing be a testimony in time of rejoicing (that is to come), because it did not come easy. It was a journey but God was and is transforming us day by day. There will be MANY MORE journeys but you are the cloud of witnesses who will see His promises, miracles and His faithfulness for this one... whenever it happens. And through obedience, perseverance and faith we will see many more.

The reality of the mountain(s) is that it isn't about us at all... We can't move any mountain on our own! We don't know WHEN, or HOW or even IF a mountain should be moved without understanding from Him. But He guides us, we're obedient and then we wait. Waiting is the hardest part. Its just a reminder that we aren't living our lives for ourselves any more. Our lives are for Him and His glory... and to HIM be the glory.

What mountains are you focusing on?

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.


Coveting your prayer,               
- Angela
























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